by Jason Mellard | Jul 19, 2024 | Blog
A belief of separateness from masculinity is a primary driver of same-sex attractions. As a boy, I had an out-of-body experience during a father-son activity meant to bring connection. The “wrestling” he initiated ended in me laying on my back pinned between his...
by Jason Mellard | Jul 12, 2024 | Blog
When I finally decided I was open to the idea of marriage and family, I wondered if it was even possible. I searched for evidence from both my past and present that might give me confidence. I found some. I also found lots of evidence to snuff out the idea. If I could...
by Jason Mellard | Jul 9, 2024 | Blog
Dear Younger Me, I wish I could be next to you right now, giving you the attention you deeply desire but haven’t received. But I want you to know that I see you. I am familiar with the long route home you walk to avoid the bullies. I can picture the sidewalk cracks...
by Jason Mellard | Jul 5, 2024 | Blog
When I was young, the mirror was a comfort to me. My reflection gave me certainty; it told me I was likable and competent. I was touring the architecture building at my future college. I widened my eyes at the vast, bustling space as I walked through the glass entry...
by Jason Mellard | Jul 2, 2024 | Blog
Dear Timmy, I’m so grateful I get to write this letter to you. Let it remind you that things won’t always be as they are. You won’t always feel being picked last for baseball in PE is the end of your existence as you know it. You won’t always feel “different” for...
