by Jason Mellard | Jan 3, 2025 | Blog, Same-Sex Attraction
I was puzzled by his answer. “It’s that jacket you always wear,” my classmate replied. Huh. My jacket. My faux leather jacket I thought made me so cool was apparently a dead giveaway about my sexual inclinations and a determiner of my orientation. What a...
by Jason Mellard | Dec 18, 2024 | Blog
I wanted to desire Christy. She was pretty and kind. We rode horses at her family ranch. Standing alongside a steed, her eyes held my gaze. “Oh crap,” I thought. My mind flashbacked to a high school girlfriend. It was fun to date her but frightening to kiss....
by Jason Mellard | Dec 10, 2024 | Blog
I said goodbye to a car I loved last night, standing in the cold as the tow hauled it away. This happened four days after it had finally become drivable again from a previous near total loss (which was a sordid tale itself I’ll tell you over coffee). It was a late...
by Jason Mellard | Dec 6, 2024 | Blog, Same-Sex Attraction
All my life, I’ve admired men who exhibit this quality: a confident sense of purpose. It was a mystery to me how someone could show up fully present, comfortable in their own skin, clear on who they are, focused on a purpose, and not shy to express it. I...
by Jason Mellard | Nov 29, 2024 | Blog, Same-Sex Attraction
The fact that I was created to make a unique mark in the world didn’t feel true. Between you and me, one of my favorite songs features female vocals by a fox dressed in a green alien costume jumping on a trampoline. There. I said it. I give the credit to my daughters...
by Jason Mellard | Nov 2, 2024 | Blog, Same-Sex Attraction
A few years ago, I woke up one morning with the following question on my mind: “How can I ensure nothing bad happens today?” It was a question I experienced on repeat, often subtle, but always present. That day it was more pronounced. I looked at the day ahead and...
