by Jason Mellard | Sep 2, 2024 | Blog
I asked a friend recently, “If you are vulnerable with someone and get hurt, is it worth it? Is it possible you could be better off for being vulnerable even though the outcome wasn’t what you desired?” He responded, “No, I have been hurt enough.” My heart...
by Jason Mellard | Aug 16, 2024 | Blog, Same-Sex Attraction
The psalmist said “For a day in your courts is better than a thousand elsewhere. I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tents of wickedness.” It is easy for me to agree with that verse intellectually, but it is not...
by Jason Mellard | Aug 9, 2024 | Blog, Same-Sex Attraction
I believe the greatest driver of unwanted same-sex attractions is a belief and feeling of separateness. In my life, I believed I was separate from other guys and masculinity as a whole. I was often out of touch with my power and purpose. And even while a believer, I...
by Jason Mellard | Jul 19, 2024 | Blog
A belief of separateness from masculinity is a primary driver of same-sex attractions. As a boy, I had an out-of-body experience during a father-son activity meant to bring connection. The “wrestling” he initiated ended in me laying on my back pinned between his...
by Jason Mellard | Jul 12, 2024 | Blog
When I finally decided I was open to the idea of marriage and family, I wondered if it was even possible. I searched for evidence from both my past and present that might give me confidence. I found some. I also found lots of evidence to snuff out the idea. If I could...
