by Jason Mellard | Apr 20, 2025 | Blog, Same-Sex Attraction
When my dad entered the gay lifestyle, he felt relief. He didn’t have to live in the tension of same-sex attraction and a traditional lifestyle. He no longer had to worry if people discovered his attractions. He wasn’t hiding anymore. His fear of missing out was gone....
by Jason Mellard | Mar 14, 2025 | Blog, Same-Sex Attraction
I choose to embrace mystery but am careful to lean into the ones that serve me most. Last summer, I walked toward the pool at the YMCA and came upon the most attractive man I had ever seen. At least I think he was. I’ll never know. He had just finished his swim and...
by Jason Mellard | Mar 13, 2025 | Blog, Same-Sex Attraction
I am creating this post to honor my dad, honor me, and honor our story together. I’ll highlight the impact of abuse, the power of forgiveness, and the sovereignty of God. I am glad to invite you into more of my story. Whether you have been deeply hurt or have hurt...
by Jason Mellard | Jan 3, 2025 | Blog, Same-Sex Attraction
I was puzzled by his answer. “It’s that jacket you always wear,” my classmate replied. Huh. My jacket. My faux leather jacket I thought made me so cool was apparently a dead giveaway about my sexual inclinations and a determiner of my orientation. What a...
by Jason Mellard | Jul 19, 2024 | Blog
A belief of separateness from masculinity is a primary driver of same-sex attractions. As a boy, I had an out-of-body experience during a father-son activity meant to bring connection. The “wrestling” he initiated ended in me laying on my back pinned between his...
