It’s just peach fuzz

by Jason Mellard | Jan 21, 2025 | Blog, Same-Sex Attraction

As a young teenager, I presented my upper lip proudly to my dad. Black hairs had sprouted.  “Dad, I’m getting a mustache,” I said.  He turned to face me. Without moving closer, my dad declared, “It’s just peach fuzz.”  What? Not true. “It’s the start of a...

“You judge me, don’t you?”

by Jason Mellard | Jan 10, 2025 | Blog, Same-Sex Attraction

This question began a conversation which played on repeat in my head. It started when I walked into the gym, the boardroom, or the sanctuary. I silently asked it of my coach, boss, and pastor. I couldn’t shake it. It formed in my mind when someone spotted me on the...

I asked him, “Why do you think I’m gay?”

by Jason Mellard | Jan 3, 2025 | Blog, Same-Sex Attraction

I was puzzled by his answer.  “It’s that jacket you always wear,” my classmate replied.  Huh. My jacket. My faux leather jacket I thought made me so cool was apparently a dead giveaway about my sexual inclinations and a determiner of my orientation. What a...

This is what I am most attracted to in men

by Jason Mellard | Dec 6, 2024 | Blog, Same-Sex Attraction

All my life, I’ve admired men who exhibit this quality: a confident sense of purpose.  It was a mystery to me how someone could show up fully present, comfortable in their own skin, clear on who they are, focused on a purpose, and not shy to express it.  I...

What Can Happen When You Trade Security for Adventure?

by Jason Mellard | Nov 2, 2024 | Blog, Same-Sex Attraction

A few years ago, I woke up one morning with the following question on my mind: “How can I ensure nothing bad happens today?” It was a question I experienced on repeat, often subtle, but always present. That day it was more pronounced. I looked at the day ahead and...