by Jason Mellard | Jan 21, 2025 | Blog, Same-Sex Attraction
As a young teenager, I presented my upper lip proudly to my dad. Black hairs had sprouted. “Dad, I’m getting a mustache,” I said. He turned to face me. Without moving closer, my dad declared, “It’s just peach fuzz.” What? Not true. “It’s the start of a...
by Jason Mellard | Jan 10, 2025 | Blog, Same-Sex Attraction
This question began a conversation which played on repeat in my head. It started when I walked into the gym, the boardroom, or the sanctuary. I silently asked it of my coach, boss, and pastor. I couldn’t shake it. It formed in my mind when someone spotted me on the...
by Jason Mellard | Jan 3, 2025 | Blog, Same-Sex Attraction
I was puzzled by his answer. “It’s that jacket you always wear,” my classmate replied. Huh. My jacket. My faux leather jacket I thought made me so cool was apparently a dead giveaway about my sexual inclinations and a determiner of my orientation. What a...
by Jason Mellard | Dec 6, 2024 | Blog, Same-Sex Attraction
All my life, I’ve admired men who exhibit this quality: a confident sense of purpose. It was a mystery to me how someone could show up fully present, comfortable in their own skin, clear on who they are, focused on a purpose, and not shy to express it. I...
by Jason Mellard | Jul 19, 2024 | Blog
A belief of separateness from masculinity is a primary driver of same-sex attractions. As a boy, I had an out-of-body experience during a father-son activity meant to bring connection. The “wrestling” he initiated ended in me laying on my back pinned between his...
