by Jason Mellard | May 2, 2024 | Blog
I don’t have what it takes to be a man. That’s what I told myself. I have a vivid memory of my dad and me wrestling. He called it wrestling. I know now it was physical abuse. He would pin me down and tell me to break free. But with the same effort I used to...
by Jason Mellard | Apr 26, 2024 | Blog
Have negative thoughts snowballed on you? The more attention and influence I give them, the louder and more frequent they become. I get tuned in to them. Here is an analogy I bring to mind when I get into a negative cycle. Picturing myself building the antennas I’ll...
by Jason Mellard | Apr 12, 2024 | Blog, Same-Sex Attraction
I want to live full out. That has been my desire and God’s design but often not my experience. When I honor and learn from both my healthy and unhealthy pursuits, I open myself up to experience more of the purpose-filled life God intended for me as His unique...
by Jason Mellard | Mar 29, 2024 | Blog
When I discovered my same-sex attraction, I believed it was the nail in the coffin to achieving the masculinity I had dedicated time to study and model. SSA was a big “F” on my manliness report card. Removing it from my life was on my to-do list for being accepted and...
by Jason Mellard | Mar 10, 2024 | Blog
In my last blog post, I described a day in which I first felt intense physical desire toward another man. My mind and body felt certain that acting on those desires would provide relief from my uncomfortable emotions of fear, self-doubt, and anxiety. I didn’t have the...
